Much of this comes out of my pain and crisis and holding on for better days, which I know there will be. I am one that thinks too much, analyzes too much, and sometimes acts too little. Combining all of this, these subjects seem to come together into a myriad of topics.
It is a personal blog about thoughts on the purpose in life, spirituality, depression, mindfulness, religion, philosophy, and living in the moment from someone who is learning daily. Some of my favorite thinkers that I have learned from include Jesus Christ, William James, Soren Kierkegaard, Viktor Frankl, Carl Jung, Alfred Adler, Fyodor Dostoyevsky, Leo Tolstoy and Martin Heidegger.
Now, I don’t always use their wisdom, much of it is from my own warped depression, mind-bended, frustratingly unique life experiences.
So here comes a lot of jargon from a writer I get a lot out of, but it’s much more important to get to the blogs.
I am a great admirer of William James and have found much of his work inspiring and realized that he is one that can easily recognize differences in those born with “sick-souls”. That is something which I believe I possess and that which I must struggle with. Finding something more than the average person, content with daily routine.
A “Sick-Soul” is the individual who insists in finding a meaning to life, an existential purpose, more than just living and being content with what is handed to them, hence, to achieve this, they must be “Twice Born” in some spiritual sense or irrational way.
This is another term James uses, “Twice Born”, as in the name from the site. William James (out of a series of his lectures) and in his description of a certain personality type describes this: “There are persons whose existence is little more than a series of zigzags, as now one tendency and now another gets the upper hand. Their spirit wars with their flesh, they wish for incompatibles, wayward impulses interrupt their most deliberate plans, and their lives are one long drama of repentance and of effort to repair misdemeanors and mistakes.”
As an example, James considers the crisis of meaning experienced by Leo Tolstoy. James describes Tolstoy’s transformation like this: “The process is one of redemption, not of mere reversion to natural health, and the sufferer, when saved, is saved by what seems to him a second birth, a deeper kind of conscious being than he could enjoy before. ”
I FIND MYSELF TO BE OF THE TWICE BORN NATURE. I QUESTION, I MAKE MISTAKES, I OFTEN VEER OFF THE ROAD, AND I CAN OFTEN BE IRRATIONAL AND SOMETIMES FOOLISH.
As for the happy life for a “sick soul”, James said it consists of four main ingredients. First we must choose to view the world as positive even though life contains sorrow and pain. Second we must take risks by acting from the demands of our hearts. Third we must act as if we are free and life is meaningful even though we can’t be sure that any of this is true. Finally we should remember that a crisis of meaning often leads to the happiest life. Thus a crisis for twice borns presents the possibility of renewal.
This can be found in The Varieties of Religious Experience